random things I've been keeping on scrap paper and really need to recycle so I'm posting them here, part 1

"I thought, Screw it, and I fell."

"Stay with that 'screw it' voice: are you saying nothing that happens to you that's good is going to make a difference?"

"There is something I know that I really want that I'm never really going to get. [...]"

"Maybe your pessimistic stance is a defense against that shattering realization. Maybe you see your life as a Faustian bargain: I will not have hope demolish the hope that one day what I want will come."

"My least favorite word in the English language is 'hope.' "

"And in the meantime you're knee-deep in it."

from some forgotten article in Harper's